i just dont know what to say to you
i am just
disappointed with you

the prelims are over! yay!

not the girl i used to see

hello

its like a short break after the one week of exams! i am quite glad that theres this break of like four days. its not really long but at least i have some more time to prepare for all those i left undone. especially for physics. and math also. great!

but well theres something bad also. i will like keep slacking when i know theres no exams tmr. like no sense of urgency at all. and thats when my studying isnt really productive at all.

erm nothing much to talk about actually cos i am really tired. like in all aspects. its like those days where you wake up thinking about how MC=MR works and how to calculate binding energy. dont really sleep well these few days too.

oh and. i think this page is kinda dull. i will design my own after prelims. for now i will just change into something else...see what i can find later.

goodnight.
its not really that long yet.

its blogging time!

anyway i just thought of something to blog about so i decided to start typing. you know how often do you say notice that you are blocking someone behind, and you decide to shift and let him pass? i think since we live in singapore everyone is like in a mad rush, so i often get this kind of scenarios and see this kind of things happening. well me and family were at the super market that day. you know the cashier lanes have shrinked terribly that it cant take 2 trolleys side by side. so my father being kan jiong decided to say "hello hello excuse me" and tried to shift the trolley foward. but well the other guy didnt bother. so my father tried again. no use still. he owns the supermarket. you cant blame him for not shifting you know. but its like singaporeans dont really have the understanding kind of attitude. i must be first. thats all they think of (sometimes i also like that la! haha).

but on the other hand, something else to think about. if the guy had let us passed. would be still be angry at him and stare at him. or would be say thank you? seriously, i have met people (mainly aunties?!) who try to cut lane. and you let them pass with them staring back at you. also with some cyclist! (i hate them to the max) they like to ring ring ring when obviously they can cycle on a pedestrain track. then they stare at you or scold you. what kind of shit! maybe its because of these people that we decide not to let others pass next time. so whats this? its a vicious cycle. seriously. which country has "please be kind" campaign other than singapore? its in a situation where people have to be thought how to be kind. its only 44 years!

haha enough of rubbish from me! i am going back to do math!
byebye computer!

hello you
i did super lots of math today. one chunk in just for us like maybe 30 plus questions. quite satisfied with myself haha. i should have did it earlier then i can have finished the whole book now (you know deep inside i have this urge to finish both books HAHA). but i am still scared that i will forget all when it comes to the actual exams. how.

i will read econs later. macro again. reading all the notes for the second time (: after my tv show haha.

goodnight.

HELLO

to dear mr wong,
thanks for reading my posts and replying! i havent seen you since we graduated like 6 years ago. really really long eh? haha. that day i saw mr soong, he sort of recognised me but well he didnt remember my name. maybe find some day we should meet up? with binglong also haha (: i can remember quite alot of stuff from last time.

okay its still studying craze but these two days i have been slacking quite alot. not good! i have like 15 more days before my first paper (obviously i dont really care about GP you know) and i havent finished anything yet. like i should have finished studying chem and econs or something. i have been stuck with the 45 degree keynesian line for like AGES and its my first time studying it :x haha. i didnt touch it for the cts sadly. but you know. i really never thought i would start studying for ANY exam like few weeks before. i never had this motivation. but after thinking about how these few weeks will really affect my whole life after that. i should think that it will be quite worth it.

ohoh today i went out with weiyang lucienne and huiling. its teachers day la so you know we are the ones who get the fun. before i met them i went to urban write to slack for a while. and i saw mr heng. with miss tee. they made me feel bad not going to school cos you know haha they seem to be the ones that would PON. OPPS but well i was quite gulity! but nevertheless i forgot all about it after i saw lucienne and huiling and we went on to pizza hut for lunch. mr tan weiyang suppossedly meeting us was at parkway eating swensens with his class. so we listened to lucienne talk about all her stories like how she went china n stay in her friends house, how her friend wants to set up a blog shop to sell UNDERWEAR. then the ultimate one was bringing underwear over from china to let them try. ohoh and also not wearing pants at home. girls. yah she said its like their culture there. why dont we have such cultures here? ):

then we decided to go macs aft twy came and eat ice cream! er then we got other stories on how lucienne got stuck on the train and was delayed for her flight and needed evidence to proof to get refund and stuff. it took her 30mins to finish the story i think. haha. shes good at telling stories.

but i learnt something today. lucienne said something about making friends. and i think its quite true. she told us how she made friends in her first day of school without knowing anyone. then how her friends made friends which became her friends eventually. i am not really good at making friends you know. i should learn one trick or two from her.

okay this is the longest i ever typed. goodnight (:
oh, happy teachers day!

i am at home today! yeah i pon school. the lessons today are not really useful i guess....i would do more on my own at home (hopefully la) so after this i am going to study already!

that day when i was packing my drawer i found one whole stack of letters that yijie wrote to me last time haha. i think i was sec 2 then. so i started reading and reading and most of them were quite lame actually haha. oh and it made me remember that there was this day that i switched phone with her! sounds so fun can. come to think of it. I havent talked to her in a long time already haha.

these few days were really quite bad. i cant even sleep properly! i think there are signs of ageing already. i am beginning to feel my hands legs aching for no reason, my back like going to break anytime. i decided that i will go do more excercise after a levels so that i dont die so early. haha

OKAY! back to work already.
see you! (:

hello
world.

today studying was quite productive i guess. quite. not really productive. didnt achieve the 8 hours that i really wanted to haha. well i had to go out to do some necessary stuff. so its alright i guess. i will do it tomorrow. i can. yesterday night i was talking to hanyi on msn and we were suppossed to go out and study together this morning. but wells both of us thought that sleeping was more important. haha so studying took the back seat. and and. she gave me some really useful advices too. i guess i just needed someone to knock me on my head and tell me all that. although i already knew but didnt really believe myself. yup. guess now i am more determined. thank you hanyi (:

guoxiang has decided that it will end soon. and when he does. he mean it. although he cant do it immediately. but it will be fast from now on. really fast. so hold on tight. before its too late. if he cant. you wouldnt know too. he wouldnt let you know. because he wants the best for you. and he should.

guoxiang can.

study everyone! its just a few weeks more and then we can think of whatever we want to.

i am sorry about it. i dont know if you care at all but i am.
nevermind.

yeah i cant give you anything.
just whack me. kill me. do whatever you want.
you just made me hate going to school too.
i just wanted to help. am i really such a bad person.
maybe i am to you. yeah.
you wont get anymore of those shit even if you want next time.